... only an Angel could answer that question...

How could you leave me?

I need you too much!

Written by Connie Small, December 7, 2000

I've had angry feelings since you died. But today, I am shocked to find I am angry at you. I want to scream at you! How could you leave me? Didn't you know how much I loved and needed you? You said you weren't going to die. I told you I was afraid you were going to die soon. I told you that, six days before you died. You told me it wouldn't happen. You said, "Don't worry mom, it won't happen that way." "Don't worry mom." You said "Don't worry." But you died anyway! You lied to me!

You weren't supposed to go yet! You still had so much to do. You were supposed to have children. You were supposed to live long enough to have grandchildren. You were going to help more people. You had so much more love to give. I was supposed to watch you do it all! But you died!

No one can take your place. No one can do what you did. No one can be you. You weren't supposed to die, Cassy! You weren't supposed to die!

Come back, Cassy, come back! It wasn't your time. It was supposed to be mine! You took my place! Please, come back! Cassy, I love you. You weren't supposed to die baby, you weren't supposed to die. What am I going to do without you? How can I go on, knowing you aren't here? You have to come back now! You caused this pain that touches every cell of my being. You have to come back and stop it. Please, come back and let me hold you in my arms again. Please, Cassy. I love you! If you come back, I promise I won't be mad anymore. Please!

Mom